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I am dealing with it right now. It wouldn´t call a relationship, but it´s painful either way.
A month ago I met a guy in Iceland (I´m from Spain) and fell instantly for him, which is a thing I thought that would never happen to me again. (It had been some 7 years since I felt like this for anyone). Suddenly, everybody was in black and white and he was in full color.

We were together for 3 days 24 hours and after that, I had to go back to Spain, but I couldn´t stop thinking about him. The whole thing had been so magic, it was really painful.

So, even though he was being kind of tepid about the whole thing, I asked him if he wanted to see me again. He said yes and I went back for a week (I just came back 2 days ago), which was also magic but luckily I got to see other parts of him that I didn´t like so much.

Even so, I really like this guy. And I know he likes me but the way you´d like a pet I guess. I asked him if we´d see each other again and he said “Sure! I just don´t know when or where.” See, he´s an artist, he´s really excentric, outgoing and extrovert, all the things that I´m not. And I suspect a narcisist too. I am dealing with a dependent personality myself.

So, to answer your question, no, I´m not dealing very well with this, even though I´m happy to know that I haven´t lost the ability to fall in love. But yes, it is painful and you suffer a lot, mostly if your friends aren´t available to take a little care of you, which is my case these days. I think the worse part is to have a glimpse at what you could have and then going back to real life.

Thank you for letting me vent, I really needed this. And sorry if I didn´t answer exactly what you were asking.

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